life as we know it...

everyhour of everyday.. things happen without knowing and surprisingly make everything seem so fine yet when we find ourselves drowning in all aspect of what they call life… gosh its so draining as well as losing grip of what we didnt expect to occur. sometimes what we see is not what it seems and not anyone of us is free of such predicaments. i myself has thought of cutting my dear life countless times and i didnt manage to find myself hanging with just a rope neither would i want to slit my wrist for something im sure i can solve. ive always been so hopeless even in small things which again im sure i can handle. more so the issue on getting something uve always wanted to happen in an instant is very hard to achieve. perseverance and patience is the key as what many say but its easier said than done. i envy those people who has what im struggling to have and seeing them taking things forgranted. it saddens me to see those kind of people..who’l realize the worth of something when its gone. i just hope everything well be alright…..

pursuit to happiness...

pursuit to happiness... are we really happy with our lives??? an hour ago i watched the movie "pursuit to happyness"..and it has moved me in some way i cannot explain maybe just maybe i was thinking of it to be a bit true..yeah it is.. its reality. some of us maybe happy with our lives but how many of us who is struggling to fight through it and just be happy. for a moment i felt tears streaming down my face... oh im crying. if i were in his shoe i would probably do the same for my family or at least for my kid. one thing that i learned from the movie was... "don't ever let anyone tell you that you can't do it...whatever endeavor you want to pursue or dreams you have...tell your self you can do it period. find a way to get through it." aside from that if you don't know the answers to questions..never be ashamed to say it aloud..and then find the answers to that questions. Life's not fair..who said it was..it never was. i for one is really confused of all the things that is coming at me..never really sure of how to handle it. circumstances put as in a situation wherein we have to make decisions..that could make or break us. but what's important is no matter how it will turn out we keep a grip of ourselves and make the most out of it or find a way to fix it. things happen for a reason and they are bound to happen. whatever it is thats been bugging us down we might as well get our brains working and not just stay somewhere and whine. whining is not gonna help...we know that. so far i have put this in mind "whatever life is throwing at me..i would surely keep myself together and hold on..that things are going to be alright and everything will fall in its rightful places..." with all the chaos that is going on..how could someone admit and proudly say they are HAPPY" i guess we will never be happy.. whatd ya think?

getting started...

juz getting started...my old account was already gone. tsk3 hmmm this song is humming in my head "as i lay in bed..wid nothing but your tshirt on..." wheew...watta song!!! i dont know who sung that song but hey..its kinda soothing i guess...is it the right word??? hehehe here i am sitting in this cafe downtown with two of my cousins who were by the way so busy playing games somewhere in the other cubicles far from where i am now. OMG! my eyes all sore..hmmm staring at this computer for almost two hours now. hmmm i got nothin on my mind for now...juz trying to type whatever that comes to mind. how can i be so damn sober??? hahahah sober? what do i really mean with that. this thing ive thinking for like a few days now... oh!!! leaving..that is. how could i leave this country??? hmmm i will soon. juz so fucked up now. i got no one to confide with except for the pocket books i borrowed from my aunt which really helped a lot.. i enjoyed reading all the historical romance novels. hmmm and oh i sleep alot now... juz to escape from everything thats been bugging me down. so far.. i can say that life for me is something you have to deal with. u know wat i mean? wel who said life was fair..it never was. shit happens...turns everything upside down and juz little of those what u call "lucky day"...hahahayyyy... while sleeping my way to escape i was hoping that ill never wake up..but GOD knows I have to... not now. so much to do..and such little time. THE TIME IS NOW and NOW IS THE TIME...
i guess thats all for now... :(